Sitting here with the Angels as company, listening to the silence – and to my youngest, sleepless like me, pacing, pacing, pacing in her bedroom upstairs as she listens to her music over the headphones.
It is otherwise so quiet, I can hear them – the high zinging voices of the Angels (no, it’s not tinnitus 😀 ). If she weren’t pacing, it might get quiet enough that I could also hear the twittering of the Little Folk, the pixies and other little nature spirits living with us. There are nights that I do.
2020 despite Covid was not a bad year for us. It was filled with unexpected new friendship, and beautiful new experiences (between lockdowns). Also, I made massive progress on the path towards my most important current goals. Which included working very hard at the day job and taking every opportunity that presented itself.
It is winter again though, and, a year wiser than last, I have chosen my words for the year again – Observe And Listen. Last year it was simply “Listen”, and I realized that I also need to observe. Another important concept here is “Boundaries”. Especially where time, responsibilities, work load sharing, giving and taking, budgeting vs spending, in short, everything is concerned.
Four spirit animals were sent my way in close encounters this past year. They were: Fox; Dolphins; Otter, and lastly, to me alone, Owl. I have googled all their meanings, but I am still left thinking, no, the message is more personal than common lore about spirit animals. Once again by listening, I will figure it out.
I have also by now firmly established that the Darkness of this time of year does not only affect me; and its effect on me is probably not even very deep as compared to many people. I remember writing about Darkness madness, in Solar Wind 2 (Antarctic winter) and again in 5, when they head out to space. I’m encountering it here first-hand. To my fellow seasonal moodswing troupers: It’s not just the Vitamin D, though that plays a role. It’s the actual amount of light, and sunlight in particular. This winter, I feel especially sorry for everyone who is on their own, locked down.
On the work front: As I am not relenting with my quest for excellence in the day-job and journey of self-development (to recover and help establish the children’s futures), there is not much time and energy left for books. Nevertheless I am determined to put out at least the books we have been working on for the last 18 months now, within this coming year. There are more that I would like to prepare and publish, but I will not make promises at this point because of the time limitations mentioned above.
I’m for once not entirely sure which audience I’m writing this post for. I know you peeps are watching for P’kaboo posts, which this is not; it’s more of a post-midnight ramble and a wish that all of you may have a good year 2021. I do believe we can’t be kept in lock-down forever, and that things will swing back up in every way. I do believe that humankind will get a grip on how to deal with pandemics.
With that, I’m signing off, see you all later.
*** gipsika ***